Why is it that when I’m alone
I crave for attention of others
Yet in the crowd, I yearn for solitude
Is it the ache for loneliness or
The thirst for recognition?
Why does the desire to vanish
Weigh heavy on mind?
Why is it that I fill the void with
Background noise when solitude envelopes me
Is it the shadow of depression lurking
Occasionally brushing against my thoughts?
I ponder, leaning towards clarity
Yet the allure of physical pain over mental lingers
A silent wish emerges to fade away like a whisper
Alone as I once arrived in this weird world.